If you're reading this, something inside of you has stirred and you followed that stirring. Really, that is what this work is all about.

Attuning to the deeper wisdom, the guidance which has no name, the genius which makes no sense but is also somehow the most inherent and intuitive thing you know.
Stripping down everything that is in the way between you and the deepest thing inside of you...
So you can live in resonance with your soul and life itself.

Most people live extremely severed  from their own embodied knowing.
Which is such a painful and confusing way to be in the world.

Disembodiment instead of deep care and presence.

Logic and sense over wisdom and intuition.

Reasons  instead of Truth and deep knowing.

Accomplishments and never inherent worth.

Being linear. Being normal.  All instead of being you.

this is the path of feminine alchemy.

We are here to remember

magic, embodiment, intuition, creation, mess, destruction, life, and ego death.

Paradox. Energy. Trust in the universe.
And ultimately, this is the path

of the great return home to self.

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MY ORIGIN STORY

When I was 16, I sat in my psychiatrist's office pending another diagnosis. I was maxed out on Lexapro and totally buried in my internal shitstorm. I was so depressed, and so anxious, and was self harming- which even she didn't know about.

This conversation was a true bottom. I was here to discuss being maxed out on antidepressents and still not being okay. We were most of the way through this appointment when she looked at me, casually, and said maybe we have gotten this diagnosis wrong. She said this flippantly with no true resolution. "You must have a personality disorder," she said to me... and the untruth of it hit me like a truck. It was guttural. And then something happened.

It was like the sky opened up above me, and I could see the unseen.

Knowing was downloaded into me.

And I spontaneously understood everything.

It was clear as day.

I understood that I had created my depression and anxiety... and that I was secretly attached to it.

I understood that this woman in front of me might have all these credentials but she somehow knew nothing and I would be quitting antidepressents immediately.

And I understood that the only person who could change my reality was me...

and only if I wanted it changed, which so far I hadn't.

I saw it crystal clear stunned, the doctor in front of me still awaiting my response. I don't remember anything else about that appointment. But I never went back and quit pharmaceuticals immediately.

Everything was different.

I started unwiring and rewiring my own mind, healing my formally diagnosed mental illness from the inside out. I had a spontaneous and unprecedented relationship with god, and I began opening my spiritual gifts. I began finding spiritual teachers and guides. Starting with the Law of Attraction on YouTube, which I only really understood how to utilize years later after getting all the way in my body.

I found pussy work (which I now teach inside of Selfish, my flagship membership program), and the left-handed embodiment path. I found the Feminine, and it felt like remembering a lost language within me. I found orgasmic meditation, and spent hundreds and hundreds of hours on the mat.

In 2018 I completed a coaching certification (that I signed up for because I felt seen in a way I never had before in this community, not even really understanding that you were supposed to become a coach) and on a whim started working with women.

Which was a spiritual assignment that was clearly chosen for me.

I found more teachers, and underwent initiation, after initiation after initiation, mastering the art of alchemy, death and rebirth, and shedding the skins of everything that is not me to became who I knew I was meant to become in this lifetime.

I don't believe in before and after stories. Becoming a true alchemist is a forever path, and not all of us are called to walk it.

But my soul was called. And it calls me. from deep within me, a stirring and knowing, every single day.

Now, I walk women on the path I have walked.

I was reflecting recently on my birthday about who I have become in these last 10 years. The leaps of faith I took to invest in the possibility that I could feel as happy, clear, safe, loved, and resourced as I do today.

I walked then so I could run today. I trusted that deeper calling and was led blind through the underbelly of my inner world until I drew a map for myself, and mastered it. I am so deeply grateful to every teacher, coach, and holder who has seen me through.

I have been the best investment of my life.